He is those who thinks he is always right, and I am wrong; so even I cry because of him, he may not know why, and even he knows, he thinks it is none of his business even I cry the whole night without sleep, as he thinks he is right and I am wrong, so he can go to bed after quarrel and falls asleep immediately, and thinks nothing happened next day.

The situation goes worse after my baby was borned, he changed from a silent man to another person that I get shocked & never thought. He is very nervious about the baby, so everything I do with my baby, even follow his instructions before doing anything, are wrong; so he blames me everyday, saying I am not taking good care of him, spoil him if he is naughty. He loves baby, but i don’t, so he promises he will treat me good and take care of baby if I give birth to baby, and as I don’t want him to have regrets in his life, promise him, though he doesn’t treat me well in the past 15 yrs. Of course, end up he did nothing but blaming me everything.

Now, when he is not happy (at work), he comes back and shouts at me with rude words and tells me the things he didn’t like in the past 17 yrs (but kept silent at that time), which really makes me feel painful and hurt, esp. on those meaningful to my life. Even I learn to have no tears, no feeling, don’t know what and how to be happy, but his recent rude words makes me feel painful.

But he is not willing to listen to me or chat with me, or even read the note I write to him and ask him to read when he has time and in good mood, as he thinks he is doing the right thing and all faults are on mine (actually everything about jobs, how to deal with life and everythings, we have opposite views), so he says it is wasting his time to chat or listen to me as my concept is wrong.

So I can just bear with it until I can’t stand anymore. I feel so regret to give birth to a baby if I know he will treat me much worse than before, and our life totally change after having a baby, and this is not the life I want (I have told him b4 having baby). But all my friends say, even before we married, that we have been together for so many yrs, and every men are the same, so what I can do it stay with him as I am too old to find another half again.

Really feel hopeless and painfull everyday.